One more to go!

I just got a phone call from the Pulmonary doctor. He said that I was good to go.

He talked about how when I get into my REM sleep that my oxygen gets low. But he

feels that after the surgery it will go away. He said he was going to release me and

let my surgen know to have a sleep machine on me when I wake up and I should be

good to go!!
So I don't have to go to my appointment Friday!
He saved me my co-pay!

My upcoming week

Well not much will be going on this week.

The only stuff I have left is:

10/1 Pulmonary follow up

10/7 Cardiologist follow up

So It looks like the only thing other than WORK this week

is the appointment on Friday. You know I was just thinking that

I would try to get my cardiologist appointment moved up. But then when

I was typing I realized that it is only a week from the pulmonary.

However, from today that is almost 2 weeks. So maybe I will

call to see if the results are ready & if they are maybe they

will have an appointment.

I will keep this updated.

Have a wonderful week

Quick update...remember this is a personal blog...

My boobs are itching and burning so bad!!!

I can not wait until I get home and get this bra off and wash with soap and water!

It has to have been the gel stuff they used on that machine!

Oh, I hope I can wait until 5:30!!

You know, it could be those gloves that the technician was wearing.

I am real sensitive to smells. And I kind of get the smell of rubber or whatever they are made of.

(and yes, I did try to wash it off in the bathroom at work)

~Echo Done~

Now I just wait for my follow up on the sleep study&follow up on the Echo cardiogram!I am READY!You know, we put a lot on our hearts. Technology is Awesome!

~YEP~

Yep... all them wires!

And on my finger too~

I got the gal to take a picture with my phone.
I will try to get that on later!

Maybe...It wasn't pretty!

~Sleep Study Tonight~

I have my sleep study tonight.

Please tell me I am not going to have all of these wires all over me!!!

I will never be able to sleep!

Then Thursday I have the echo cardiogram!

Oh boy then after that I just go for them to tell me everything was ok with it...

Then the Surgeon!

I am going to whine just a little bit...

Yesterday and today I have ached so bad. I can't wait to have the surgery so that I can start feeling better. I know if I get some of this weight off I will feel better. I just can not picture life without Fat and hurting. I don't seem to be seeing me differently than I am now. Does that make since? I guess because I have been overweight all my life I just don't see it any other way. Will I look deformed? I am just ready! Ready to feel better and want to do stuff!
Please pray that everything will go well and I will be safe. Healthy to be able to spend more time with my son and enjoy every minute I have.
Thank you my friends!

What a week...

I know I should have posted earlier, but I have been so darn depressed this week and it didn't seem to get any better. But today is Saturday and Thank GOD that week is behind me.

Lets start with Monday... I just had to ask my mom what Monday was... It was a holiday. You mean to tell me that it was what would normally be a 4 day work week and it was that crappy?

Monday I don't remember Monday.

Tuesday... workday I was on intake I don't think anything special happened that day.

Wednesday... I had the endoscopy that morning. It was not as bad as I remembered. As soon as I was released from there my mom and I went to The Cracker Barrel. YUM. Then we rushed over to my pulmonary appointment. When I got there they:

1. Took x-rays
2. Took urine
3. Took 4 tubes of blood from my arm
4. Did pulmonary function test
5. Took blood from my wrist (checking for some kind of gases in the blood)

Then the doctor came in... Oh what a sweetie! We chatted for a while. He got my history. (I had 2 right Pneumothorax's (Collapsed Lung) back in 1986. Then we chatted some more. Long story short he wanted me to sleep with this little thingy that checked my oxygen while I slept. It was small and connected to my finger.

Thursday...

I went to return the thing I slept with. Of course I got in traffic that was backed up! There had been an accident...How dare people get in my way when I needed to drop that off and get to work and not be to late? I ended up being 30 minutes late. That morning did not go well. I think I had so many people that had called and wanted to know where there food stamps were... I don't have ANY food in my house. Nothing to feed my kids...whine, whine, whine... Now let me just say food stamps for 1 person a month the max is 200 dollars. Some of these people get 6, 7 plus up to 1000+ a month. How do you not have ANY food in your house. They got on my LAST nerve. I came so close...ok actually I was on my way to my supervisors office to tell her to take it and cram it. Wouldn't you know she was not in her office? So I went to my lead worker and lost it..cry, cry, cry!

Then I went back to my office and worked just a little bit and had to go to the Nutritionist appointment...I had to be there by 1:00 which I was. I left there at 5:20. Wow. It was very interesting. Actually it was fun. There was I think 11 ladies in there including me.

Thank GOD again that when I went to pick my son up he had done his homework!

Now on to Friday...

I don't know why but I was so EMOTIONAL! I do know that I had not had some of my medicine for a few days. I didn't have the money to go pick it up. I should have just put it on my credit card. But I didn't. I was hurting so bad...my foot was killing me. (I have had 3 shots in the right foot & can't get any more) Just one more reason I want to have this surgery. Anyway I was going down the driveway to take my dog to my mom's house...(she babysits her, she doesn't do well alone after we got broken in a few years ago) So back to the driveway... I started boo hooing. I cried and cried I couldn't stop. Cried all the way to the school to drop CJ off. When I got out of the car one of the teachers came up to me and she had been crying too. She asked for me to pray for her as her & her husband were having problems. So guess what? I hugged her told her things would work out got in my car and cried some more.

Ok...Now I am at work TRYING to get some work done! The phone rings and it is the pulmnary doctor called me...not his nurse or any other staff Him! Did I mention he is a doll baby? But he has a wedding ring... Ms. Canfield, we are showing that your oxogen fluctuated throughout the night. We will need to do more testing as it seems you do have sleep apnea. So now I have to have a sleep study done! So there is one more test and then another appointment. (and another copay)
This will all be worth it in the end, right? And it is a good thing that we are doing all these test, right? I guess the sleep apnea could be one of the reasons I am so tired & moody. Well, I am tired of writing now and I have cought you up to today. Today I woke up feeling much better. So hopefully I am over my pitty party.

My day yesterday

Well, I finally got off my butt! My brother came down from Virginia as he does every 2 weeks. But he came by himself. I worry about my brother. He is always on the go. he never stops. I am so worried that one day it will catch up with him. Anyway, he comes to cut the grass and all the other stuff that my mom and I can't do. For years I have had a problem with some kind of rash/raw area when I get real hot & sweaty so I haven't cut grass in a long time. But yesterday it was real nice outside and he was alone so I got on the lawnmower and helped him. Now when I say cut grass it is not a little grass. My yard takes about 2 and a half hours to cut... (on the riding lawnmower) So I went & cut my grass then came back to my mom's to help him over there. I think I started about 9:30 and at 1:00 I had to stop. I had to go get ready for a wedding that I went to at 3:00.

Now, just a little information...I don't like to do anything on the weekends or my day off from work. I have gotten so lazy. I don't want to go or do anything. That is another thing that I really want to change once I have my surgery.

So then I went to the wedding...right by myself. I was happy to see some of my coworkers there. I hadn't planned on going to the reception but they didn't know how to get there so I went and didn't get home until right around 8:00.

I was really glad I went it was real nice. Well that was my Saturday!

I broke down!

Yesterday after I realized it would probably be at least another month & a half...
I drank a soda! I let it go in my mouth and swished it around! Oh it was so good!
If you are considering this surgery a good site to go to would be ObesityHelp.com. I haven't been able to really check it out much but there is a place that has before pictures and when you move the mouse over the picture it shows the after. Oh my GOSH! Is this really going to work for me? I can not even imagine! Oh I hate having to wait.

Just a little disappointed

Well, I am just a little disappointed. I guess because everything has been going so fast. I went to the cardioligist and my EKG was fine but I have to go back for an echocardiogram. That would be fine too if it wasn't that they couldn't get me in until September 30th. So that is all the way to the end of the month! THEN... I have to wait 2 WEEKS ! That appointment is scheduled for OCTOBER 12th. That stinks!

But I guess that is ok. They just want to make sure EVERYTHING is working properly!
So in my mind I am looking at probably November for my surgery!

Again, that is in my mind!

I will keep you all posted~

Please keep me in your prayers!

What I have been through this week

Well, Monday I had my psych appointment. It was at 7:45 am. I had bunches of questions to answer. Then I talked with the therapist I must have been in her office for 2 hours. We talked about everything. She was really nice. I don't have to go back there until 3 months after my surgery.

Wednesday I had my appointment with my regular physician. He gave me my letter of approval, and my lab results from July.

On the first Wednesday of the month they have a support group from 7:00 to 8:00. So the gal I met on the first day (the 4 hour class) had called me and wanted to know if I was going. So I told her yes. If she would go I would. Well I am really glad I went. There were people there that were in the process of getting ready to have the surgery, had already had the surgery. They were awesome! One gal that was sitting beside me had been 6 months out from her surgery and she had already lost over 100 lbs. I can not even imagine! There was a man that had lost over 200 lbs. I think he was 18 months out.

Today I took all the paperwork I had together to the surgeons office.

Today the cardiologist office called to set up my last appointment that I have to have. They had an opening for tomorrow! So, I took it!
That means that after next Thursday I will be on my way!!!!

So wish me luck!